I remember a time, it seems like 2 years ago now, where I lived in my past. I gave my power away to everyone who triggered me, I held on to the “I cant’s” and the doubt .. I allowed myself to be drug down by my environment and emotions, and I let my life be ruled by my past. I was not the person I am today, I dwelled in the “why me’s” and the “ohhh I’m empty” and the “it’s not fair’s” .. I swam in alcohol, and shoved food in my face, while I made excuses for not accepting responsibility for my life. .
I remember, the nightmares, the flash backs, the fight or flight emotions. I remember running when I felt attacked or unwanted.
Then I realized, it wasn’t that “I” wasn’t unwanted.. it was my attitude, my personality, my constant doubting and negativity.. that wasn’t wanted.
When I started to make changes in myself, I began with a simple, guided meditation, and a tarot reading gave to me by my dear friend. She taught me things during that reading that I decided to stick to. The same things I’ve told y’all, that you don’t believe will work for you…
I quit saying I was sick. I quit saying I had ptsd, depression, bipolar disorder, or anxiety.. and it quit manifesting into my reality before long..
I personally healed my own emotional trauma this way, and was able to come off 9 meds. (don’t do this without consulting your physician.)
I’m not a Dr. I don’t know shit.
I also analysed myself. Who I was in situations where I felt triggered. Was I truly right? I learned I was not, it was my own emotions triggering the responses I projected onto others, that created my own triggers, and therefore my fight or flight mechanisms.
But then, how do I change? I quit allowing my projections to exist. I never want to make anyone else feel like they are responsible for my feelings. I made a new set of rules for myself and wiped out the olde way of thinking.
We go through life, saying I’m harmless. No, most of us are not, and when we are shown our judgement, our jealousy, our anger or pain, it makes us feel bad, or it angers us and that is because deep down inside, we know it’s true.
I stopped allowing myself to lie. Even a little lie, is still something that doesnt sit right with me. I did this, because I had lied to myself for so long. I blamed everything on others.. and didn’t take credit for shit I did wrong, which in turn means I’ve lied to others as well. I won’t anymore. I base my life off honesty. I seek truth, I am truth, and I will point truth out.
I stopped allowing myself to be a victim of life. I’m not a victim at all. A victims mentality is “woe is me” and I am not this. I am power. I am calm, I am Peace, I am a warrior, the creator of my life.
I stopped allowing myself to relive those olde thoughts. I started picturing a future. I started making changes in the music I listened to, I changed the things I spent my spare time doing… I started learning, helping others online, I started reading cards.
One of the most important things I did though, I made the clear cut decision to accept my mission here on Earth and the Heal so I could assist in the healing of humanity. I stared working with the Angels, (which you too, can do) and I started calling on my spirit guides daily (which you should do) and I began showing thanks for the blessing I had, no matter what they were.
I studied manifesting and didnt stop until I understood it, I changed my Facebook by unfollowing negative people, even family. I rid my life of hateful, abusive people.
I found forgiveness and understanding for those who had hurt me. This is hard for alot of people, but forgiveness brings you peace.
Every cell in your body physically wastes energy holding onto the memeories of the past.
Did you know, our cells are totally replaced every 7 years? How many memeories do you have of times prior to those 7 years? Facts: those are now embellished memeories, to justify your emotions.