Life can definitely be a rollercoaster.
Yesterday I felt the need to write, and never did. I’m somewhat glad because of what happened last night.
This retrograde has brought about a huge release and realization in me.
I gained my physical shop that I had been manifesting, two days ago. Then yesterday morning I had the most energy.. I was so thankful for everything I just cried happy tears. I danced around and listened to all my favorite music. I was on top of the world
But then last night, old programming came up that made me see what really was, and what I needed to admit. I’m not as healed as I would like to be. Life can be a struggle, and that’s ok. I’m not perfect. I’ll never be. I embrace the part of me that shows this fear, I love her. She’s been through so much she deserves patience.
For a long time I would get triggered and run my mouth and lose people I loved. I thought this is what happened last night… but the love me and that man share is stronger than that. He listened to my bitching.. and finally had enough… and I know he didn’t deserve it. My bitching came from a place of impatience.
I dealt with the pain of him “leaving me alone” and in the midst of it, I was wanting to die. How could I, again?? I was so tired of me. How could I bitch at this man when a he is, is good to me. I feel his love, he’s always there for me. I have to get this under control.
Its important to know that life will happen, you will have bad days. You will experience your own toxicities so you can adjust. You will be shown, who u are and what it causes if u pay attention. Then you’re responsible for shifting and becoming a better human. You’re responsible for showing others as well.
I Am a Goddess.
Biology and Ether
Balance of both light and dark.
This journey has been wonderous, scary, enlightening, and beautiful and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
Walking into walmart last night, following the man who shows me so much love.. I received a message. “You are the light for other, even when you’re heart is breaking ..”
This is true. Lightworkers are always doing what they are meant to, even if its painful and they are hurting, their light is shining bright.